The Woodcutter

Picture Credits: Ching

hated cherry blossom’s dying sprawl. The untidiness of it. The neediness. How
the fallen petals clung to her shoes, like wet, white moths, as though she was
dry land to them. She laid down the axe on the grass and raised each itching
foot in turn. She shook until a few petals unstuck and fluttered to the ground.
The rest held fast.


swooped with airplane arms through the blossom’s sickly-sweet gunge and
giggled. Her red hair swung behind her in an arc. So pretty, Anna thought – but
as her daughter sprinted towards her and the blossom’s winged petals flapped
and flailed and stuck to the little bare legs and the new blue dress and that glossy
hair, she winced. Stop, she wanted to shout. Don’t come any closer.

spring, it was the same. Prue clapped and whirled around the shedding tree and
the blossom flew to her. She loved the tree and it seemed to love her back in
its cloying, dying-throes way. It was all his doing.

daughter’s tree,” he had said the day he planted it. Anna gave birth that
morning – “gave light”, they would have said back home – and when he arrived at
the hospital, he cradled their little Prue for ten, perhaps fifteen minutes,
before rushing away to plant a cherry tree at the foot of their garden. Prunus serrula, he said. Gorgeous. White blossom rather than pink. Bark the
colour of glistening cherries.Your
twin, he had whispered to Prue every day since, for the last eight years; until
the night he left without a word’s explanation.

lovely twin!” Prue sang as she approached the tree. Her laugh today sounded a
notch higher than usual.

at the state of you already.”

flushed at Anna’s words. Her raised arms froze mid-air. Her elbows and wrists
jutted out, like nubs on brittle, wintering branches.

father didn’t think about that, did he?” Anna insisted. Sometimes she couldn’t
stopper the voice inside her.

stared up, silent.

mess this tree leaves behind,” Anna explained, training her daughter’s raised
arms back down to her sides.

still said nothing, but her eyes said she understood: Mum meant another mess
left behind.

wiped a petal caught in the crook of Prue’s neck and brushed at her winged
dress. As she tidied, she looked across at the rhododendron by the fence. It had
become a monster too. All those showy, purple flowers. All the waxy leaves that
would curl into orange mulch come autumn. Every season in this garden brought
its own particular untidiness and neediness. She glanced down at the axe lying
beside her: a sharp, clean thing that might end all this mess.

always left me to clean up the mess.”

stumbled forwards and let out a small whimper.

reached out a steadying hand. “All right, petal?”

needed to stop using that word. Petal.
That was his word.



took another squishy step closer. “I could ask him.”


could ask Dad to come and sort the garden – tidy the mess?”

months gone, with no explanation apart from metaphorical fogs and craters, and still
Prue dreamed and plotted her father’s return. Every morning when Anna woke,
there was her daughter hovering at the foot of the bed. “Is Dad home?” she’d
ask. Anna would shake her head and Prue would sidle closer and pat the cold,
empty side of the bed from head to foot – as though she’d rather doubt her own
senses than hear her father’s silence and what it said.

I ask him?” Prue’s mouth quivered.



you won’t beg your father to see you. He should be asking you. Instead, it’s
radio silence.”

shudder passed through Prue’s body. Anna could feel it vibrate in the earth
beneath them, like the drumming of a gull’s feet. Prue had never cried since he
left. She only shook, as though she didn’t have the voice or salt for tears.

not silent. He messages me sometimes.”

stared now at the rosebed he’d planted a couple of years ago. There was the
first sign of his wanderlust, his edging towards mists and gorges. It was a
blanket of red and yellow deadheads now. She’d already taken the secateurs to
it this morning to avert the impending mess. Prue hadn’t noticed yet.

Anna repeated back. “Once in six months?”

shudder passed through Prue. For a moment, Anna wondered if she should stop – but
it was time to break his story’s spell. Girls aren’t fables. Trees don’t make
good sisters. Absence isn’t a place to sow seeds or to water or to try and make

don’t need your father,” she said. “I can sort this garden.”


cement it over.”

Prue blinked, as though learning some terrible swear word.

a pavement.”

time, the tears rose to Prue’s eyes. A fold of petals drizzled from her dress. She
stared down at Anna’s hands, saw the roses’ stings in them and flinched as she
looked over at the blanket of deadheads.

make our lives much easier, sweetheart.”

eyes shone. “You’re going to chop it down? Everything Dad grew?”

reached out and brushed her daughter’s cheek. “It’s much for me, on my own.”

my tree?” Prue trembled.

pointed to the mulch. “It makes too much mess.”

tugged at a petal on her dress’s hem – or perhaps it was a moth, this time. “I’m

It’s not your fault, sweetheart.”

flushed. “She’s my tree spirit. And she makes a mess.”

Prue. It’s just a tree. That was your father’s fanciful story.”

fell to her knees and grabbed the axe with both hands. “I’ll help you tidy, Mum.”

stared at her little girl’s wiry strength. “Put that down.”

fine.” Prue half-smiled. “I know how to use an axe. Daddy taught me. Undercut
first, he said.”

Anna asked.

I’ll show you.”

planted herself, feet apart, in front of her glistening tree and swung the

fell me.”